It is currenly snowing ridiculously hard outside and it has been since about 9:30am sooo that's cool. I decided to go out and about and get some stuff done today in spite of the blizzard (do laundry, get my nails done, go grocery shopping) and as soon as I stepping outside I regretted it. The snow was in my face, I couldn't take a deep breath without choking on snow and my hands were positively frozen. I held my ground though and continued with my errands. I decided to do this super bougie thing where I drop off my laundry and they do it for me (surprisingly not that much more expensive than me doing it myself) but the only problem is I dropped it off and went grocery shopping and now I am home and I don't want to go back out and get it...unclear on the decision I will make to fix this problem. New York has been alright so far. I am not going to lie. I have been super stressed out lately about many many things. Things that I am not going to go into detail about on here because I am not going to be accused of "subtweeting" (A message that mentions someone without using their actual name. Usually employed for negative or insulting tweets; the person you're mentioning won't see the subtweet in their timeline.) But I will say this: You should really just be kind to those around you and be a good human. Go out of your way to help out others if you can. Cause like, what's the harm in it, ya know? (And there it is. I just subtweeted...whatever) I am not letting New York get to me, but it is definately making me adjust to how I approach things. I have to chill the freak out, honestly. Haha. I let myself get waaaay to stressed out over things that don't deserve that stress. Talking to my friends has made it a bit easier as they try and give me advice about living here and taking one day at a time. My friends are the best. I am very blessed and thankful to be here with Wes. He is honestly the only thing that keeps me sane sometimes. I am super blessed to have a job and to be able to pay my bills. Being surrounded by homeless and people with very little everyday (more than I ever have in my whole life) just makes me super aware of how much priveledge I have. I know, I know it's super strange to say that I have priveledge, right? I am a woman and I am ethnic. However, I do have priveledge. An ENORMOUS amount. I started this post talking about dropping off my laundry and getting my nails done. Going grocery shopping. I see people everyday that cannot even remember the last time they did these things....if ever, honestly. NYC is a culture shock. But not in the ways you might expect. I am not surrounded by rude people, I am not constantly afraid that someone is going to steal my wallet, or attack me on the street, I am not getting caught up and I am not drowning in the fast paced environment. Instead, I am seeing poeple from walks of life that I have never seen before. I am having to have a more sympathetic ear when it comes to understanding different types of accents. I am having to be more self aware when it comes to taking things for granted becuase thousands of people suffer. Everyday. Thousands of people would love to have the "problems" I have. Thousands of people right here and right now in the city that I live in. I know this post seems long and scatter brained but it is just me trying to get out all of the things in my heart and in my brain that have been building up over the past week. I love where I am in life right now. And even though I have been so freaking stressed. That's alright. Because at the end of the day I have love, family, a roof over my head, and food in my kitchen. Thanks for reading all that. I love you all. Be kind today. To yourself and to a stranger. Ya'll deserve it.
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